Most of you did not grow up with boundaries and had no idea how to respect and enforce them in a healthy way. A lot of the clients I work with grew up with surveillance. Someone was always watching how they dressed, who they spoke to, how loudly they laughed, whether they were "too much" or "not enough" for a room they didn't choose to be in.
This system becomes ingrained, and it transforms, and it loves to shapeshift across all social settings. A friend who needs to know everything so she can manage how she feels about you, a family member whose love comes with a running commentary on your choices, a community that polices your behaviour and calls it concern. Office politics that love to label you, judge you, and judge your whole being under the guise of 'performance', or how well you 'fit into the culture'.
Freud had a word for what happens when that watching moves inside you: the superego. It's the internalised parent, the internalised culture, the internalised crowd, and once it's installed, you don't need anyone in the room to feel watched. You do the policing yourself. You shrink before anyone asks you to. You explain yourself before anyone has questioned you. That voice that tells you you're being selfish, or too sexual, or too ambitious, or too visible. That's surveillance with a key to your house that takes over your life, stops you from following your intuition, blocks your peace and puts you in a state of anxiety.
I remember it happening to me a lot, and I fell under the pressure. It's how I got tricked into an arranged engagement at 19 and was told I was doing the right thing for my future (ps: the man ended up being a woman beater, married and divorced 3 times and even threw a phone at his wife's head). It's how I was bullied out of my last full-time job at 32 when I refused to comply with certain 'modesty' and 'shame' standards, was sceptical when I saw colleagues crying on TV over Gaza and again, refused to enable a dynamic that ostracises those who ask professional operational questions. It turned out that the operational concerns I had were very much valid, the 'modesty' police were covering up bullying and sexual harassment cases, and the same people who were crying over Gaza and trying to overwork me because I'm Palestinian drank Coke and laughed about it when we went out for lunch, and I brought it up.
At those points, I was hypervigilant of the superego because I needed it to survive... or so I thought. It's our internal subconscious programming that gives this to us, but it's the one that sabotages our internal truth. Freud would say the solution is to balance your superego so it takes over your thought process and decision-making, but what happens when the root cause of all of this comes from holes in your aura?
This is where psychic protection comes in
We often think of psychic attacks as people doing spell-work, intentionally giving the evil eye, etc. A lot of the time, it's just people talking about you, sending you micro-signals of their disapproval, and your own hypervigilance in response.
The truth is, your body knows the difference between a passing thought and an intentional one, even when your mind doesn't catch up fast enough to explain why you suddenly feel exhausted after being in a room with someone, or why your stomach drops before you've even read the message.
I don't believe most of what hits us is malicious. I believe most of it is unconscious. People who are envious of you don't always know they're envious. People who want to control you have usually convinced themselves it's love, or concern, or "just looking out for you." That doesn't make it less of an intrusion. It just means the protection you build can't rely on people changing their intentions. It has to work regardless of intention.
This is what holes in the aura actually are, practically speaking. They're not punishment. They're not a sign you did something wrong. They're places where you were taught to abandon your own boundary before anyone else even had to cross it, because somewhere along the line, holding the boundary felt more dangerous than losing yourself. Every time you shrank to keep the peace, every time you explained yourself to someone who hadn't earned an explanation, every time you absorbed someone else's disapproval as your own truth, that's a hole. And holes don't close themselves. You have to consciously seal them, and you have to do it on a level deeper than logic, because the superego doesn't negotiate with logic. It was installed before logic. It has to be addressed somewhere underneath it.
That's what the hypnosis I made is for.
In it, I guide you through six pieces of Quranic protection. Ayat al-Kursi first, because before anything else, your nervous system needs to remember who actually holds power, which is not your mother, not your manager, not the community group chat. Then Surah Al-Falaq and Surah An-Nas, the two surahs of refuge, recited for protection from harm that comes at you from outside and harm that creeps in from within, including envy, including your own hypervigilance turning on you. Then Surah Al-Kafirun, the surah of separation, because some boundaries are not meant to be softened or explained, they are meant to be stated. This is me. That is not me. Then the ninth verse of Surah Yasin, traditionally called on for unseen protection, a kind of spiritual concealment from those who mean you harm. And I close the sequence with Salawat al-Fatih, so you don't end the session braced for attack. You end it in blessing.
Under hypnosis, all of this becomes a shield. Not a wall, because walls keep out everything including the love you actually want. A shield moves with you. It discerns. It lets in what's for you and reflects back what was only ever someone else's fear, someone else's envy, someone else's need to keep you small so they could feel big.
You were not made to live hypervigilant. You were not made to police yourself on behalf of people who never deserved that much of your attention. You were made to take up space, to be loved without surveillance, to be celebrated without being resented for it.
Do this hypnosis every single day for at least 21 days and see what happens.